Hello! names Kristen
sun-Capricorn/moon-Libra. 21 of age, in the south of Texas, living life so far so good :) enjoy!
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i guess im scared, that in the end it was all my fault every little thing that has scarred me & traumatized my view on the world of any given situation that i was not the victim. i was the cause and that being hypersensitive allows me to blame others for what they’ve done to me, but not seeing the other side of the coin. im scared that one day someones going to point that out in front a crowd of people and im going to die inside sinking my embarrassment low in my chest and allowing that feeling i feel so often. unworthy to even be alive, because im such a horrible person connecting is what i desire to feel like im a person not some piece of shit that all it does is cry and get depressed about anything and everything. im scared that how i really feel about myself is true and im going to get called out on it, so i keep quiet and just suffer and thats what a personality disorder is all about not know how to deal with the world that your so detached from the world you dont know how to cope with anyone elses feeling but your own your not selfish, just lost By kristen

I feel i’m very intelligent, but feeling so many years have been influenced by others that I am not, well…you kind of get stuck in a very unwell-ed mind. & you become scared of even to make a move that would attract any kind of attention because of the fear of anyone knowing anything that they can remember of you good or bad. you want to keep its isolated so that they don’t get stuck in your rambling of insecurities. that’s what i fear the most. people getting to really know me. By kristen

oh man, this personality disorder is a real bitch….if i could describe it to someone. id reply with well, all you feel is all these overwhelming emotions, & some days you dont feel anything just checkout of reality, the worse is the constant faking that you do just to prove to whomeveraround that your normal, oh yeah lol an i lot of “unordinary” thinking…its just not fun okay By kristen

what do you want"
“to be beautiful”
“do you think that everything would be better if that was the case?”
“yes, i truly do, i guess i hate myself that much By kristen

stupid this too say, but in all honesty i dont think im that attractive enough for people to want to be my anything…and then there my personality which completely sucks i feel like it does, and it gets harder each day trying to accept the fact that i dont think anyones going to ever love me, fall for me or see as this amazing person they have to be with….its sad and its a horrible thought process but its how i feel By kristen